crush

kalian boleh anggap aku gila

kalian boleh anggap aku aneh

tapi apa yang terjadi padaku sekarang memang aneh

apa yg aneh

akhir-akhir ini aku nggak bisa berhenti mikirin seseorang, dan aku nggak tahu kenapa

kita hanya berkenalan sepintas, tapi entah mengapa begitu berkesan

"dia yang dulu penah menghilang kini telah kembali lagi"

menyapa aku lagi,

dengan senyumannya yang sama hangatnya ketika aku berkenalan dengannya

dia masih tetap gila olahraga, cuek, dan individualis

dia bukan orang yang spesial

bukan pula cowok cowok populer ato cowok cowok tampan yang biasa kalian lihat di majalah

tapi... dia begitu "impressive" begitu orang bilang

dari sekian banyak mata, mata nya begitu indah

"aku suka mata kamu" aku pernah mengatakannya sekali, dan dia hanya tertawa kecil

mungkin dia hanya menganggap aku gadis kecil yang hanya menjadi teman sepintas .

teman dikala dia bosan, teman dikala dia kesepian .

apa yang membuat dia begitu spesial dimataku? apakah ini yang disebut dengan crush?

apakah aku hanya rindu akan rasanya jatuh cinta?  

aku tidak berani berkata kalau aku rindu, apakah aku cuma rindu obrolan manis kita ketika larut malam?

mungkin .

walaupun kita tidak pernah mengobrol apa itu yang dinamakan cinta. 

ah, baiklah sudah lupakan . anggap saja aku hanya suka belaka . 

i remember

Salut folks :*

lama qt tak berjumpa, hahhahah, sibuk kerja cin dan sibuk ngurusin diri sendiri dan ngatur keuangan yang kadang-kadang bikin sumpek -__-. Perasaan uang di dompet kemaren tebel, 3 hari kemudian tiba tiba jadi tipis, entah deh yah hilang kemana, atau mungkin ini dompet bisa makan uang sendiri :0

ngomongin soal kesibukan sekarang aku kerja di salah satu universitas terkeren seantero jagad raya sebagai editor jurnal akademik :D yay!~ bukan pekerjaan yg okeh sih sebenernya, tapi yah gapapa lah buat langkah awal, pekerjaan ini lumayan buat jadiin aku sebagai orang yg sedikit ke organized,

i am reckness organized person, kadang-kadang aku bisa jadi orang yg sangat rajin, berambisi dan bersemangat, kadang-kadang bisa pengen gak ngapa-ngapain !

well, wajar kan yahy? *alibi , kerjaan makin numpuk gara-gara kemalasan ini,

ada sebuah quote bagus ini "why don't you procrastinate your procrastination?"

HAHAHAHAHA. SUSAH TAUK!

iyah deh kadang pengen gitu ga jadi pemalas, pengen jadi cewek yang rajin, organized dan tipe-tipe mantu idaman gitu. kayakna butuh keteguhan hati yang keras gitu yah.

well, many things happened during these late 3 months. hmm.. apa yah, banyak sih. aku juga lupa mau nyebutin apa ajah yah.

banyak hal unik yang terjadi, banyak rahasia rahasia yang terungkap, dan banyak kejadian yang bisa jadi pelajaran. 

hmm apa yah yang terjadi tiga bulan terakhir ini, coba aku list satu satu:

1. aku udah move on dari raphael, gyahahahah, apaan sih yah penting banget cerita kayak ginian, ah iyah sih penting kok, selama 8 bulan aku galau ngalur ngidur, begged him to come back to me udah keliatan sia sia. he has a new gf, ah baiklah, semoga bahagia saja yah :)

2. Andrew balik hubungin aku lagi yay!!!! :D sumpah aku seneeeeng bangeeet, aku kira dia diculik alien ternyata dia cuma disembunyiin sama monster gua ajah, hagagag

apalagi yah, apalagi yah.. lupa deh . nanti aku ceritain lagi yah, :p

MAKE UP TRIVIA

Honestly, I was surprised by this kid, Sabrina.

She (surprisingly) followed my blog and I really dunno why she did it :/ hahahha, 

my blog is not a make-up tutorial like hers or this girl gitasyalala.blogspot.com . 

However, they do their best in make-up tutoring, and I just say ‘WOW” about her make-up collection, And when I stalked Sabrina’s blog (http://sabrinatedjo.blogspot.com), I found “this or that” questions, and yeah I dare to answer it:

EPISODE

MAKE UP:

Blush or Bronzer? Blush

Lipgloss or Lipstick? Lipstick, I don't like lipgloss :/

Chapstick or Lipbalm? Lipbalm, I always put my lipbalm in my pensilcase

Matte or Sparkle eye shadow? Matte, I detest sparkling eyes

Gel,Liquid,Cream, or Pencil eyeline? Actually, I hate using eyeliner, you know, I have Bambi eyes so I don’t think I need it but if I have to choose, I’ll pick Pencil Eyeliner

Foundation or Concealer? Foundation

Neutral or Statement Eyes? Neutral

Liquid or Powder Foundation? Powder, I can’t use Liquid thingy in proper way 

Winged or Rimmed Liner? None

Pressed or Loose Shadows? Pressed, easy to carry away

NAILS:

(Whoaaaa, I never use nail polish! (okay, it’s not “Never” but I rarely use it, I like to keep my nails clean, but yeah I have to answer!)

Neon,Pastels or Glitter Nail? Pastel

Long or Short? Short (I keep my nails clean, so I keep them short )

Acrylic or Natural? Natural

Matte or Shiny? Matte

Go For Manicures or Manicure yourself? Manicure myself, I am not stingy but I am not a prodigal girl. you wanna waste your money for something that you can do it by yourself?

BODY:

(Naaahhh!! I love this chapter! Lalalala~)

Perfume or Body Splash? Perfume

Lotion or Body Butter? Lotion, body butter is so worthless

Body Wash or Soap? Body Wash

Fruity or Flowery Scents?  Fruity! I love strawberry!

Natural or Synthetic products? Natural

FASHION:

Jeans or Sweat Pants? Jeans

Long Sleeve or Short? Short Sleeve

Dresses or Skirts? Both

Stripes or Plaid? Plaid

Tunics or Tshirts? Tshirts

Flip flops or Sandals? Sandals

Scarves or Hats? Scarves

Studs or Dangling Earrings? Dangling

Necklace or Bracelets? Necklace

Heels or Flats? I love flat shoes, but high-heels is so tempting

Jacket or Hoodie? Hoodie

HAIR:

Curly or Straight? Straight

Bun or Ponytail? Bun

Bobby pins or Butterfly clips? Butterfly clips

Hair Spray or Gel? No

Long or Short? Long

Light or Dark? Dark

Side Sweep bangs or Full Bangs? Side sweep

RANDOM:

Rain or Shine? Rain, j’aime Il pleut!

Summer or Winter? Winter, hahhaha, I love snowy days

Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla

Pool or Beach? Beach

Mall or Online Shopping? Both

Coke or Pepsi? Trust me, Pepsi is so much better, but yeah, I am not a soda-junkie

Donuts or Pastry? Doooo’h-nuts

Thanks for reading :) you can post your comments or just leave away, hahhaha. Love, XOXO

IDLE MIND

helloo folks,,
huyeeah, akhir-akhir ini saya agak gendutan, ini terbukti dari omongan kakak saya, "wew, kamu kok gendutan sekarang Ver, yah gini loh kethok (kelihatan) ayu"

dan yang kedua dari omongan pacar, "cin, lengan kamu makin nggelambir, perutnya makin chubby,, sana olahraga!" allahu akbar....aku jadi takut lihat timbangan -____- terserah deh orang mau bilang aku endel atau genit atau takut gendut atau takut apa. TERSERAH! tapi aku bisa ngejer hebat kalo timbangan diatas angka 55 (Allahu Akbar, aku pengen langsing dan sexy -_____-)

sempet dulu pas lagi stres"nya garap skripsi, banyak kesibukan keluar, badan jadi kurus ramping gitu (dan ini malah bikin kakak-kakak aku nggak suka, katanya kayak kurang asupan nutrisi :p). dan terutama mamanya mas rzky yg sempet bilang, "mbak, jangan kurus" yah, kok badannya kayak tiang berjalan". well, pacar sih bilangnya badan aku oke-oke aja, tapi kayaknya kalo dia udah mulai protes aku suruh olahraga jadi aku kudu olahraga beneran deh -___-

tapi serius sih, kalo badan kurusan, gerak jadi lebih gesit. dan nggak molor dan malas ngapa-ngapain kalo badan gendutan gini.

ngomong" kenapa aku gendut, kayaknya ada alasan deh.
aku udah nggak aktip kuliah mulai bulan oktober kemarin, udah jarang keluar, dan hobinya cuma internetan melulu(yeaah, i am kind of internet junkie :( ) kerjaan full time emang belum dapat, mengingat banyak hal yang lebih penting yg akan dilakukan tahun depan, aku nggak mau main main asal nyambit kerja, yah sementara sih cuma ngelesi doank, pernah juga november awal kemarin jadi interpreter buat UNESCO (hahaggaga, gajiannya nggak banyak sih, tapi pengalamannya super banget, nanti aku ceritain kalo lagi mood yah :) ) terus masih menjalankan bisnis bisnis yang memang harus dijalankan.

but most of all, jam kerja aku jadi kebalik sekarang.
kalo yg biasanya pagi-sore ada kegiatan diluar, sekarang berubah, bisnis dijalankan dan ngelesi pun dilakukan sore-malam, dan hal ini hampir berhasil ngebuat aku hampir dipukul sapu sama orang rumah gara" pulang kemaleman.
dan otomatis, kalo pagi-siang aku nggak ngapa-ngapain, nyuci mah seminggu sekali, bantuin masak sebentar doank, sisanya yah kalo nggak tidur atau ngulang-ngulang film atau series yang ada di laptop yang udah lama nggak update.

pacar sih nyuruh aku belajar masak.

Pacar sekarang udah kerja jadi yah waktunya paling nelpon sejam-an maksimal paling lama abiz pulang ngantor, itupun kalo dia udah keburu tidur. Temen" kampus udah pada pulang kampung atau kalo nggak yah udah dapet kerjaan full-time. Awal" lulus kuliah sih nyantai, tapi lama kelamaan boring juga kalo harus tiap hari kayak gini terus -______- 

dan karena kalo internetan terus dan mbuka twitter atau facebook malah nggak bikin otak kita makin pintar, malah semakin bego. aku coba deh baca-baca buku buku yang aku beli dan belum sempet kebaca. salah satunya pas aku lagi boring banget dan nggak ada kegiatan lain di rumah, aku sampai baca Critical Theory Today by Lois Tyson! gilaaaaaaaaaaa...itu buku wajib pegangan waktu kuliah, isinya ilmu-ilmu filsafat berat yang boro-boro aku mau baca jaman kuliah dulu, mbawa bukunya ke kampus aja ogah dan sering pinjem temen (that's why i only got B in this class) . Dan setelah aku baca" (karena udah nggak ada bacaan lain) ternyata banyak paper kuliah aku yg analisisnya dangkal banget -______- kenapa penyesalan selalu datang terakhir. hikz, stupid me.

dan aku tahu sih ini semua disebabkan otak kemalasan kita, mungkin pas jaman kuliah dulu aku nggak seberapa fokus kuliah, yah dapat nilai pas-pas an juga gapapa, padahal kalo aku mau belajar paper paper kuliah aku ngak bakal semengerikan itu -_____- *sigh* ah tapi yasudahlah, lain kali buat pelajaran ajah kalo mau dapet yang terbaik nggak boleh malas.

oke! i promise i won't be lazy anymore!

*crossfinger*

ngomong-ngomong soal kemalasan di rumah yang akhirnya berujung pada nonton film di laptop yang rata" film jadul semua, iseng-iseng (aku inget-inget nih tapi yah) ngitungin berapa kali aku udah nonton sebuah judul film.

jadi kalo dibikin statistik sih:

1. The Dark Knight- 7x watching - this is the best movie i ever watched after Forrest Gump and The Kite Runner (but unfortunately, i dont have that Tom Hanks' movie in my laptop) yah jangan tanya deh, kayaknya kalian tahu deh kenapa aku suka banget sama film ini. Hmm..mungkin karena aku jatuh cinta sama Duitnya Bruce Wayne.

2. 500 days of summer- 6x- hagaggaa, sejujurnya sih aku lihat film ini soalnya Tom Hansen ini goblok banget, lucu aja ngelihatnya, dan agak-agak mirip sama cerita pribadi aku sih (tsaaaahhh, aku yang jadi Summer Finn kok *crossfinger*) dan banyak adegan yg sweet tapi nggak lebay, nggak terlalu drama menye kayak sinetron indonesia atau drama korea gitu sih (mihihi, maap deh) terus yah apa yah, hmmm. oiyah, one more, because of Matthew Gray Gubler.

3. 1408- 5x- ini film horror setengah setengah kalo aku bilang, nggak ada hantunya, lebih khas horror mental atau horror psikologis. nggak banyak yang suka sama film ini, dan banyak yg bilang filmnya "film hemat biaya". yah tapi aku suka loh. amazing nggak? terserah deh kalo people dont understand ini film yah. none of my business :p

4. A Serbian Film- 3x- hagagga, ada yg tahu nggak film ini? kayaknya kalo ada yg tahu pasti..pasti...kalo nggak penggemar film yah penggemar *sensor*. coba ditonton sendiri yah, kayaknya aku salah satu dari sedikit orang yang tahan nonton film ini sampai habis dan malah nonton sampe 3x -_- ini doyan atau ketagihan?

5. The Kite Runner- 3x - 3x nonton, 3x sukses dibuat nangis. FYI, aku belum baca novelnya, kayaknya novelnya lebih bagus :)

6. Friday The Thirteen- 3x - mungkin ini the most film yang nggak masuk akal yang aku nonton. aku sendiri juga heran kenapa aku nonton ini sampai tiga kali....well, sex scenes nya hot semua sih -__-

7. 21 -2x- Winner Winner Chicken Dinner! aku suka nonton film ini, pertama karena ada jim sturgess, kedua karena ada Jacob Pitts, ketiga karena aku pengen punya cowok kayak Ben Campbell! dan aku baru ngeh kalo ini film berdasarkan dari buku setelah nonton film ini yang kedua kalinya (my bad ) , i wonder sih, if it were real, what kind of person was Ben Campbell? -_-

8. A Beautiful Mind- 2x- well, satu-satunya yg aku suka dari film ini yah selain ceritanya, ada Paul Bettany!

that's all lah yah buat film, yang lain ada beberapa film klasik yang nggak mau aku buang bukan karena aku suka, tapi nyarinya susah -_____- thau sendiri kan aku nggak bisa download, kalo yang lain sih rata" aku nonton ulang (dan ulan-ulang, dan ulang-ulang) serial Supernatural sama How I Met Your Mother. mihihih, suka ajah sih, ceritanya sama-sama bagus.

ngomong-ngomong film terakhir yang aku tonton itu 500 days of summer (baru dua hari maren aku nonton lagi) aku baru sadar soundtracknya ternyata bagus bagus (yeah, yeah, you can slap my face, i've watched it 6 times and barely realized that it had great soundtracks) dan yang paling parah, aku baru tahu kalo The Smiths itu band beneraaaan!!! sumpah kalo yang ini, boleh lah kalian lempar aku sepatu -____-

dan yang paling nggak enak, aku tahunya setelah ngobrol sama Vema.

Vema: hey what's up?

Me: i am watching Tom Hansen again, gosh! never getting bored of it. i also saved some romantic scenes, maybe you want to see those things?

Vema: oh, i am more interested on the soundtracks. great, you know my favorite is The Smiths.

Me: Eh?The Smiths? is that real band? i thought they were just imaginary band for the movie

Vema: Goooosh!!!! 

*end chat*

dan malemnya pas aku nonton On The Spot di Tv ada lagunya The Smiths yang diputer buat ending songnya, dan aku kayakna inget, ini pernah denger dimana yah..langsung deh *cling* ini kan lagunya 500days of summer -__- . 

sebenarnya ada dua sih lagu The Smiths yang dipake di film itu, tapi aku paling suka sama yg judulnya (cukup panjang) "Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want". pertama sih suka sama musiknya, akustik gitar gitu, simple, enak buat merenung atau galau pas malem-malem, terus langsung deh aku coba download, pertama sih nggak percaya kalo lagu itu cuma 1,5 menit. tapi setelah download 3x dan hasilnya sama" cuma berduarsi 1,5 menit, baru deh percaya kalo lagu ini emang judulnya doank yang panjang tapi isinya simpel banget.

Oh thanks Vema, she always has good taste in choosing music. First was Landon Pigg, and now is The Smiths.

and i am really keen on the lyric,

Good times for a change 
See the luck I've had  
Can make a good man turn bad
So please, please, please Let me, let me,
let me Let me get what I want this time
 
Haven't had a dream in a long time  
See the life I've had Can make a good man bad
So for once in my life  
Let me get what I want  
Lord knows it would be the first time 
Lord knows it would be the first time

dan aku baru tahu juga kalo lagu ini juga di cover sama Band Muse (dan banyak band indie lainnya), dan satu lagi bayangan aku selama ini The Smiths itu band tahun 2000an, tapi kok dari musiknya bener" setipe kayak the Cure, pas aku cek di google lagi ternyata ini band emang pop banget tahun 80an (tuh kan!) satu-satunya tebakan aku yang bener dari band ini cuma band ini asalnya dari Inggris (cuma satu doank tebakan yg bener, dan meskipun kalo ini band khayalan, aku yakin banget vokalisna pasti ambil dari British, ah sudahlah, Nevermind)

Lagu ini selain enak,dan tentu saja enak banget dan melegenda banget, kalo nggak gitu yah mana bisa sampe dicover banyak band, liriknya bagus, dijadiin soundtrack, dan populer banget (seharusnya, aku terlalu lama hidup di amazon, jadi baru tahu kalo band ini exist sejak jaman emak gue nyium cowo pertama kalinya-_-) dan malah ada yang bilang lagu mereka juga buat ending song-nya National Geography.

entah kenapa, aku "ngeh" banget sama liriknya. liriknya simple tapi bagus banget, jadi kalo misal kita nyanyi lagu ini, atau dengerin lagu ini, kita kayak ngerasa lagi ngeharepin sesuatu yang kita inginkan. dan mohon mohon banget supaya Tuhan bisa ngabulin permintaannya.

tapi dilagu ini juga, ada lirik "Can Make a Good man turn bad", aslinya si penulis tahu meski kalo apa yang diinginkan dia dapetkan itu bisa bikin dia berubah jadi gak bener tapi dia tetap memohon buat dapet apa yg dia pengenin, padahal itu belum tentu yg terbaik bagi dirinya.

i exactly remember about him. yah sapa lagi kalo bukan bule sialan itu.

seminggu yang lalu kalau nggak salah aku sempet marah hebat gara" attitudenya dia yg egois dan seenak udelnya. tapi kalo dipikir lagi, atau mungkin kalau mikir dari persepsinya dia, dia boleh aja semena" sama aku. i am no longer his girl anymore. but even if i am not, being disrespect to someone's else is cruel. your selfishness ituu yaaaah turned my temper on!!!

i almost cried. when i remember myself about five months ago, i really wanted him more than any guys i've ever met. tapi setelah tahu kalo apa yang aku pengenin, aku pengenin banget ini bisa bikin aku jadi "orang yang nggak baik" (nggak usah aku jelasin kenapa, aku udah muak jelasin, tapi kalo mau tahu kenapa coba ikutin dari awal, pasti tahu kenapa) atau meski aku nggak berubah, hidupku yg bakal berubah jadi nggak baik kalo aku maksain sama dia.

tapi mirip dan persis sama lagu ini, aku masih berharap (hahhagaga, aku tahu kenapa sekarang ada yang bilang love is blind, or you can be a stupidest person when you're in love). aku masih berdoa, satu kali aja, aku bisa dikasik kesempatan bisa ketemu dia. 

Well, tapi yang kita tahu , ALLAH SWT pasti ngasik yang kita butuhin kan? karena Tuhan tahu, apa yang kita harapkan belum tentu baik buat kita, Tuhan yang lebih tahu kita. But this time, aku nggak bisa bohong sama diri aku sendiri, kalo aku masih mau dapetin apa yang aku mau :( . Raphael.

dan ini bukan berarti aku nggak sayang sama pacar aku sekarang.

between A and B

hello folks,

lama banget yah gak nulis..hagagga..padahal sebenernya aku pengen nulis banyak banget. tapi tiap kali buka blog rasanya malas nulis -______- padahal banyak ide, banyak ide curhat, dan banyak ide bla bla that kind of things.

oh yah, i wanna share something sih sebenernya, kalian percaya sama stereotype gak?
misalnya,
- orang indonesia pasti ramah
- orang bule pasti suka nge-bir
- orang afrika itu banyak bacot, dan sejenisnya dan sejenisnya.

well, sebenarnya kalo kita percaya sama yg namanya Stereotype ini bikin kita makin berfikiran sempir, nantinya malah jadi chauvinist (buat yg gak ngerti apa itu chauvinist, tolong cek google yah :p hahahaha)

tapi terserah sih kalo mau  ilang aku orang yg chauvinist atau apa, tapi aku agak sedikit bingung. mendengar kata "orang prancis itu egois dan suka komplen". nah loh, benarkah itu?
well, aku cuma kenal dg dua orang prancis, dan umur mereka sama sama labil, nggak usah sebut nama, anggap aja yg A berumur 23th dan yang B umur 22th.
usia yg labil bukan?

waktu aku tanya si A soal stereotipe, dia bilang, "yah gitu deh, orang prancis emang suka komplain, orang italia itu ngomongnya cepet dan kadang nganngu banget, itu bukan stereotipe kok, emang gitu sih"

terus aku tanya, "lah situ suka komplain juga donk?"

si A jawab, "iyeee..aku suka komplian apapun, komplain orang itu enak"

nah loh.
ada 2 kemungkinan dia jawab ini:
1. dia orangnya jujur, dan kayaknya bisa di-iya-kan dan pendapatnya soal orang itali itu tadi yaah, rumahnya sama itali cuma 2 jam perjalanan, jadi yah bisa dipercaya lah yah pendapatnya,
2. dia lagi mabok pas ngobrolin ini sama aku :/

ada yg bilang orang prancis itu egois, hmm..iyah juga sih kalo dibilang.  tapi kalau soal egois egois an semua cowok egois (hahahha, peace deh yah para lelaki '_'v) tapi kalo yg si B ini aneh juga sih. dengan badan yahud, muka ganteng, dan anak kesayngan mama-papa yg tinggal di Norway entah kenapa dia nggak mau punya cewek, (eitss, dia nggak gay loh yah -_-)

alasanya, "aduuh veee..apa yaaah, it's not the right time to have a gf, i wanna be alone somehow, doin' evrything that i want"

ada 2 kemungkinan sih kalo buat si B ini,
1. si B mungkin trauma pacaran, sering cekcok atau gimana, dan dia lebih milih sendiri untuk beberapa waktu
2. si B ini om om girang yg nyamar jadi anak umur 22 th yg alay -_____-

sebenernya stereotipe itu bisa dipatahkan sih, karena nggak boleh manusia itu dikelompokkan berdasarkan streotipe (kenapa aku jadi sok bijak gini) . coba deh mikir kalo misal orang indonesia baik dan ramah, terus apa kabar sama mas rzky donk? orang dia judes begitu kalo ketemu orang, dan sama sekali nggak ramah.
kalo orang bilang bule suka nge-bir, nih si A nggak pernah nge-bir -___- serius deh.
yaaah, berarti pada dasarnya manusia itu sama yah. walopun mau putih, hitam, abu-abu, nggak bisa kita nge-judge manusia berdasarkan ras atau bangsanya (namanya rasis noh!)

tapi...
ada satu hal yg bikin aku makin gagal paham, temen aku yang kerja di polandia langsung cerita ke aku pas aku ngamuk ngamuk di facebook gara gara misunderstood sama orang prancis,
he said, "yah kerjaan aku nanganin orang prancis gini semua -__- orangnya suka ngomel dan gak mau kalah -___-"

hahhahahha, yg sabar ajah deh yaaaah :))) nggak semua orang gitu. :D

Prom Date

PROM DATE

I was crying when I was in the library, which no one knew, even there were lot of people, and of course the silence books. I did not ever know why he dumped me. Maybe my love was not enough for him, because he thought that I was too ordinary. I could not concentrate; the papers were ignored by me on the table. Davis, my brother, sent me ten messages, and I didn’t reply them at all. I knew, he was looking for me, would pick me up and offered me to take a walk or just hanging around, watched him and his band playing in Burstast Coffee. But, I did not want to go.

Someone patted my back; she was Mrs.Garner, a nice librarian whom brought about three thick books in her hold. She smiled at me,

“Why are you crying, sweetie?” She said.

I unleashed my glasses then cleaned my eyes, tears were lining down. “Nothing,” I answered.

She put the books on the desk behind me, and sat next to me. “Do you need someone to share?” She asked meaningfully. Because I was the regular visitor here, she might be familiar with me.

 “Oh, don’t cry. Let me think that I could help you.” She said with low voice then she took something from her pocket skirt. “Well, I guess. It is about the Prom, am I right?”

She still hid the mysterious thing in her hold, a second later she showed what it was, “Here, is my nephew, you could offer him for the Prom, tomorrow night.” She explained. There was a mini-photograph of a young man, handsome and clearly face, right closed-up at it. His black glasses, added his stunning gesture.

“Are you surprise?” She asked me.

“Yeah, how...” I could not describe it. I was just speechless. How could she know that I needed a prom date after I was confused and frustrated because of Hayden, my ex-boyfriend. He and I broke-up, for sure he dumped me, though it was closer to the Prom Night. I should have recognized that a guy like him, or everybody called Mr. Famous-looks-for-love-till-you-drop could not be faithful to his mate.

I was just an ordinary girl and lucky to get him. Until I realized that we were separated because he wanted to look for some other pretty gals. I must have known that Davis did not like him, and tried to offer some of his co-band guys to have a date with me. Instead of accepting it, I told him to choose one of hot chicks who always chased himself down.

 “And then?” Mrs.Garner repeated. I looked at her face, and nodded my head.

“So you say yes, Sharma?” She was staring at her nephew photographs and laughed, “Problem solved” She continued. I bet she really knew me very well or I doubted that she had a psychic skill.

“What a shame...I, I actually need a date, although my brother will take me there...” I replied. “Yes, I need him”. 

Then she just answered thoroughly and looked at my face, “It’s Okay, so you want to pick Jensen up?”

“Me? Pick him up?” I said wondering.

“Yes, pick him up. He’s a new comer here; he doesn’t know your college, even this town. I suggest you to get him for some great places” She made clear on it.

“Well, I pick him up at seven.” I exclaimed. And with no feeling in my head, I just decided it, maybe in a hurry, I guessed.

“Ah, Sharma, you should thank to me! I guarantee he won’t disappoint you, he’s a lovely kid.” She tried to convince me. I just chuckled and thanked for her kindness. I really wished that I had a sweet prom, and Jensen would not let me down and cover my heart from Hayden’s memory.

At D-day, I rode Black Chevy and went to pick Jensen up at Mrs.Garner’s house. It was Davis’ car; he lent it after I told him that I got a special date from ‘the stranger’. He actually did not care about this stuff, he informed that he was going to attend the prom but he would come along with his band where they would play there at 9 am.

I wore my classy tube dress, and he said that I was amazing and I deserved the best prom date, ever. He also remembered me not to miss The Ay-Caramba, his rock band, about to play on stage.

I parked my car exactly in front of Mrs.Garner’s house. I could see obviously, a cute guy whose black tuxedo and British haircut sat besides the window pane. I was so anxious, was he Jensen? How would this prom go ahead with him?. Oh, I was so terribly nervous. Then Mrs.Garner opened the door.

“Are you ready, Sharma?” she smiled at me. I smiled back at her.

She called a guy inside the house. I knew that he was Jensen. He woke up from his seat, and then came out with his walking cane.

A walking cane?

He was a fine-looking guy, and if I wasn’t mistaken, he must have had muscular body inside his tuxedo. But his walking cane made me trembling.

“I’m sorry. Are he blind?” I spoke in shiver voice.

“Oh, honey. He was blind. But believe me, he will treat you right tonight. Is it a matter to you?” Mrs.Garner questioned me back.

I only sighed. Stand still. And shocked.

Mrs.Garner reached his hand and directed him to me. I could see his two eyes: beautiful and unfocused. They had a shady black spot under.

“Now, you can take him into your car.” Mrs.Garner advised. I helped him getting in my Chevy and suddenly I felt dire, I was full of hatred. She lied to me. Liar, liar, liar! She gave me a blind guy with his cane?  I swore that I did want it, I was punked!

“I hope we’re having fun.” He spoke besides me.

I was just quiet and did not respond. He was humming for a second then he offered his hand to me, “I’m Jensen”.

“Sharma” I just held his hand without shaking.

I was overrated! I ruined myself tonight! I could have been embarrassed because of bringing him to College prom, as my date. We talked in silence during on the way to the prom. I mentioned no word until I parked my car and opened the door for him. He thanked to me, and I seized his hand, trying to direct his steps.

He started the conversation, but should I care? I just focused on my own, when my eyes met with Hayden’s profile, and his new girlfriend. Their hands were holding each other.

“Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, Sharma!” He shouted. He played innocent, pretending that we had nothing matter.

We stopped; he approached us and stared at Jensen’s cane.

“Is he your new...”

“Friend!” I cut his word, “Just Friend.” I gave him my cynical smile.

“A blind friend? For Prom date, eh?” he gasped. His dark brown eyes stared at me sharply.

I could only turn my face down. I felt suck.

“Have a wonderful party.” Hayden continued his sentence. He waved his hand and skipped around with his red-haired girl. I was totally offended. Was that a great moment? Oh yeah, meeting your ex-boy with his beautiful chick and you got nothing? It was wonderful!

“Sharma?” Jensen called me. “ Are you okay with me?”. His voice was indistinctly.

“I am okay.” I shot to the point.

We both went through the big auditorium. That was really a huge party. Some disco balls above, the flashing and sparkling light and people enjoyed The Ay-Caramba’s song titled “Baby, I love your best friend”. The audience shouted, screamed, and some of them dancing like hot worms.

“That’s my brother Davis.” I explained to Jensen.

“Who? Where?” he asked.

Oh, Stupid me! Of course he could not see Davis on stage.

“He is the one who sings the song. Can you listen to them?” I said and my finger pointed right on the stage.

“Oh, I listen. Great voice,” he smiled.

When the band had finished their song, Davis came down from the stage and I rose my hand up. He moved forward to me.

“Sharmaaaaaaa... a little bit late!” He was in a hurry, grabbed my clutch bag so fast and took the car key inside.

“I take it. Ted’s car has some troubles. I need my car; we got to go to the next Cafe. Job calls! You can go home with your date, huh?” he said in riot voice.

“Davis... I… Can’t!” I could not tell him that I came with a blind guy.

“With your date!” he chopped and chuckled. Jensen was blocking him, so he did not see the eyes. “Have a great party! I must go now!” .Then he smooched my cheek and went away.

The music turned on to jazz tune. It was time to dance. And for that moment I discerned it would make me sense the torture.

“Sharma, do you wanna dance?” Jensen patted my shoulder.

“Huh?” I shocked.

“Oh, I would be tainted if you don’t wanna help me dancing.” He laughed.

The music played “Moon River” song. We danced slowly. I directed his hands to getting my hip and I bonded my arm to his neck.

“Don’t choke me.” He joked.

That time was the time which people called ‘I don’t feel like dancing’ thing. I just realized when I looked at the corner side; I saw Hayden with his girl hugged each other tightly. I watched them kissing, and lucky me, he waved his hand at me after he kissed her. I just closed my eyes. Silly! My heart was destroyed, outraged, and my tears were falling down from my eyes.

“Sharma?” Jensen whispered in my ear.

“I wanna go outside. I’m sick of this!” I roared roughly.

I took his walking cane which was under my feet and gave it to him. We went outside, sat on the bench. I cried, loudly. This was my first time crying in front of a stranger.

“What’s wrong?” He asked me. Though he heard my groaning, he could not notice my crying face. His eyes were unfocused in searching my body around.

“I’m badly hurt and no one can cover me!” I grunted.

“Sorry, sorry, if I hurt you” He said spontaneously.

“No, not you actually . Sorry, I had a personal problem” I confessed.

He turned his face down, seemed like he tried to touch my face. He had flawlessness on his expression; he was so attractive despite his blindness. Honestly, he had pretty green eyes as if those things could see. Then, he took off his tuxedo and gave it to me, “Take it, I know it’s cold here. If you wanna be alone, I can get a cab for myself”.

“No!” I shouted. “I don’t wanna go home, and my car has been taken by my brother, I just don’t wanna be alone!”

He nodded his head and once again, we spoke in silence. He let me alone in my solitude. Yet, he knew that I did want to make a conversation. I just wanted to think my stuff about Hayden in my own mind. I felt so much pain, I wished I could have grabbed my pillow. I took a look at him; He was sleeping besides me, laid his back on the bench. At a glance, I never thought that I would lay my head on his chest. But, I did, I intended to do it. It was soft, warm and I could hear his heart beating.

The sunshine was flaring through, twinkled my eyes as I opened it.

But, where was I?

I did not realize till someone in front of me, the driver, said “Good morning”.  I moved my head aside; there was Jensen, and he was lying next to me.

“You are in Mr.Buckley’s car”

I gasped. I worried. I was afraid. Did I wake up in Jensen’s car? Then I felt something was holding my hand.

“Thanks” Jensen said with his deeply voice.

“You..!” I shocked. I could not utter a word.

“Yeah, I’m Jensen Buckley and I’m not blind!” he laughed. He touched my face, I was nervous. He was more handsome than before, and he was NOT BLIND! How could it be?

“I’m on shooting a film here in this town, rolling as a blind man. Oh, That’s pathetic.” He scorned himself. “Then I had to cut my hair like Paul McCartney.” He laughed. All of sudden, my face automatically changed like a red plum, I was shy and I felt the excited feeling in my heart.

“And Mrs.Garner was a great woman, a good theater teacher. She helped me to improve my character; she advised me to screw the crowded place and also people like you! Cool! I cheated on them” He continued.

“Yeah, that was a great success” I murmured.

“Thanks for helping me, too. For taking me to your prom nite.” He spoke in a lovely tone.

His beautiful eyes stared at me, and unexpectedly he kissed me. I felt his cherry lips, so smooth and soft. For the second time, I swore it was too good to ignore. Maybe, it was too good to be true. It was so amazing. We kissed and touched each other face until his car stopped at Mrs.Garner’s house.

That was all, about my Prom nite story. That was the best prom nite after I ever had! Davis felt sorry about leaving me on the Prom, he was a little bit shocked because of a Limo was parked in front of my lawn, but I told him that was okay. I told him about what happened yesterday. I was happy to say this to him: “I got a very, very, very special date”. Maybe, Davis was right that I deserved to have the best date, ever.